Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Three

The Plan: The plan was to transfer one high quality embryo and hope for the best. If it didn't work, do FET's for the rest of the year under the outcome based plan I entered until it did. Or, I ran out of embryos.

The Reality: I transfered 3 low quality embryos and they humored me and froze two even worse quality embryos that the embryologist doesn't think will survive a thaw, not grow if they did, and only a miracle would cause them to result in a pregnancy.

I'm glad I had an hour or two wait (they were running very behind) after talking with the embryologist before talking to the RE's. I need that time to process. I became a cry baby while in with the RE's and pretty much didn't stop the leaking for a few hours...and here I have started up again....Pretty much everyone in the office was feeling sorry for me.

Yes, it can still happen. The ugliest embryos can and do turn into adorable children. It just isn't very likely. The odds are not good.

I basically lost a full day of work and am now even more behind than I was before. And, I'm so far behind that I can't even tell you at the moment because thinking about it is too stressful. I left the house at 10 am and got home around 4:45 pm.

To say I'm sad, disappointed, and upset would all probably be understatements.

I'm tired, crampy, my eyes hurt, and I'm not feeling great. My cough is persisting and Max has another buggery nose so didn't go to school today. To top it all, I have a yeast infection. ET of crappy donor eggs is a very expensive way to find that out.

4 comments:

Cindy said...

I'm so sorry this cycle hasn't gone the way you would have liked. I am hoping for a positive beta in a few days though! -Cindy

Laura in L.A. said...

Debbie, I am so very sorry. I don't know what to say; this news has just stunned me. However, I am hopeful that it could work very well, anyway. I am praying for positive betas for you. Hang in there.

Love, Laura

Solitaire said...

Oh, how disappointing. I always think that DE is bound to work and have fabulous embryos but I guess not. I hope and pray that one of those little embryos works out.

Anonymous said...

shit. I'm so sorry, Deb... I'm keeping things crossed for you.
-Margie