Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Week 3

It has been 3 weeks now, 21 days since my babes have been born. I know you are not supposed to wish your life away, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't wishing for the next few weeks/month to just be gone. I'd like to fast forward until I have both of my babies home with me with them healthy, and strong, and where I can cuddle and kiss them as much as I want, when I want. In those 21 days I have held Nora only 3 times for a total of about 100 minutes. And, probably I will not be able to hold her much if at all this next week either. It really just breaks my heart and makes me cry. Mostly, I can just go on auto pilot and not think about things too much and just visit and do what I have to do. Then, things like today happen that just rock me off my foundation a bit.

Typhoid Nora, awake for the camera. Anyone else think she is pleading for me to get her out of there, just make it all better, or at least just hold her and give her hugs and kisses? Ray, stretching in for a nap after some mommy cuddle time.

6 comments:

Laura in L.A. said...

Oh, Deb. You're allowed to want to wish NICU time away. I am so sorry that today was such a crappy one. But your babies are beautiful, and I know that they will be big and healthy and HOME soon.

I am praying for you all.

Love, Laura

Anonymous said...

Wow-is it just me or are they getting bigger? They really look like they are growing quite a bit to me. It really sounds like things are heading in just the right direction.

Nina said...

Debbie, I'm here on pins and needles - praying that Nora does not have that resistant stafilococ... I can only imagine how stressed out you are... Please hang in there...Best, Nina

Care said...

Nora and Ray are so beautiful. I'm sorry Nora is in isolation, and hope that the MRSA tests come back negative.

Laura in L.A. said...

Hi Debbie-- I am thinking of you and Nora, and I hope that you got good news today.

The prayers are continuing...

Love, Laura

Aimee & Hannah said...

Beautiful Babes!!! I sure hope Nora bounces back and is able to be released from isolation soon. Keeping you and your babes in my thoughts & prayers...