Tuesday, February 26, 2008

The deed is done

Well, the deed is done. It was actually done this morning. Although the SR doc doesn't require strict bed rest, I decided to have a lie in this afternoon/evening anyway. Max hasn't been sleeping well. I haven't been sleeping well. Lots of wakings, then hard to get back to sleep. So, I came home and took a short nap, then started reading a book.

I was completely fine to go/be there by myself. It hurt some, but a lot, lot less than the CVS. I'm just glad that God forgives sinners with probably the worst sin being that, at least at the moment, I don't feel any remorse. I feel relieved. I feel a certain peace. I feel hopeful that maybe, just maybe I'll start feeling better. The strain of carrying three was really getting to me in so many ways. I'm supposed to start antibiotics tonight just in case. The same antibiotics I was suppose to take and couldn't keep down last week. I'll do that tomorrow.

A gem of the day was finding out that hormones peak at 10 weeks and so that I should be on the downhill slide anyway, but that it will improve more and faster likely with only two.

Another gem was finding out that the fact that I rarely can keep prenatal's down would not have affected the babies. That they get what they need, just deplete me and my reserves. I can feel that.

I am now carrying b/g twins and I'm fine with that. When the procedure was over, I thanked her for her kindness and her compassion and for being willing do perform such difficult procedures. My entire life I have strongly supported a woman's right to choose, even if I didn't think it was ever a choice I could make, because you never know what a persons situation may be at the time they make that decision. I have supported planned parenthood and candidates that support pro choice because it is an issue that always has and likely always will be important to me. I never felt more thankful that the "right to choose" was available to me today.

I feel like I should feel guilty or bad or emotionally wrought or something. I don't. At least for now. I still feel like it was the best decision for me and my family, maybe even more so after talking with the SR doc about odds and percentages in general and in my case in particular. As I've said, as she said, the only way to know for sure what would have happened is to go down that path and accept the risk.

Thank God that I live in a free country and had the right to choose. That's what I've mostly felt today.


Katrina said...

Glad to hear it went well. You made the right decision for yourself and your family. I am glad you are feeling releived and comfortable with that. :)

How is the bleeding? Has it completely gone away?

As always, I am thinking about you. Take care of you and your little ones!

calliope said...

I have been thinking of you.

Care said...

I'm glad the procedure is over and done, and that it went well. I hope you do start feeling better soon, and that this pregnancy goes smoother from here on out.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you have it behind you now, Deb. I hope you get some relief soon, and that the bleeding stays away. Take it easy! FWIW, I did 3 days of bedrest afterwards (I'm sure it's a bit like bedrest after IVF - not sure it really does anything, but you feel better about doing you can), and had no real complications. But relief, oh yes, I know the relief. Now you can move on with your pregnancy and start getting excited about this new son and daughter on their way!

Laura in L.A. said...

Hi Debbie,

I didn't realize that it was yesterday! I've been away from the computer for a few days, and I missed it.

I am so glad and relieved that everything went well. I am also glad that you feel peaceful and relieved. You did the right thing. I hope you will feel better physically now that it's done.

Love, Laura

Nina said...

Thank God you are done, and I hope you start feeling better soon...

Aimee said...

Oh my! I missed this post!

I bet you are happy that you made the decision and got the reduction out of the way, and can press on with a heappy/healthy pregnancy. Smart move!

Hope the nausea will soon disipate and that you're feeling better!