My heart, prayers, and positive thoughts are going out today for two of my SMC-TTC, IRL, friends. One of them is just back in town from attending her grandmother’s funeral and tested negative on an HPT today. Her beta is scheduled for tomorrow. While this is her first medicated IUI, she has been on the ttc journey for several years and had an IVF that failed (got OHSS and was hospitalized) at the beginning of the year. She is sure that it is “over” and she is so upset and bummed out. I hope she is wrong.
My other friend got her first positive beta; after she was so positive that her cycle was over that she stopped progesterone. The beta was really low, but tripled from 5 to 18, but she has been bleeding with clots (sorry if TMI). She knows the chances of this pregnancy making it is small and is happy because it shows that her eggs can fertilize and implant. I am hoping that this is the little embryo that could and the pregnancy does stick.
They are together for lunch while I am here hard as work (or not) in back to back meetings and wishing that I was with them.
The TTC process is just such a roller coaster with more lows than highs the longer you are on it. It is just so hard to hear the message that it “can still work” even if you do have/get a negative HPT when you are so positive that it hasn’t worked…again. I have been there.
Part of me doesn’t really believe that the prayers and positive thoughts and hopes really help. I used to be a big believer in power of positive thinking and prayers. The process has jaded me so much in that regard, that I don’t really believe that anymore. However, I figure it can’t hurt, right? So, I am offering it up for my two buddies. It would just be so cool if it worked out for both of them this month and they can both be so close in their pregnancy. We can all be pregnant together and we can all laugh about how we got pregnant on cycles that should have never been or we were positive hadn’t worked until our dr. called us to tell us so. Our kids can grow up together and be so close in age. It would just be perfect.
If you are the praying type, or spiritual, or believe in positive thought type, please offer some up to my ttc friends. May this be the end of the ttc road for them.
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Hey Debbie. Well, I have already been praying for the positive beta friend. :) I hope it works out for her! I will add your other friend to my prayer list as well. :)
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