Week 3

It has been 3 weeks now, 21 days since my babes have been born. I know you are not supposed to wish your life away, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't wishing for the next few weeks/month to just be gone. I'd like to fast forward until I have both of my babies home with me with them healthy, and strong, and where I can cuddle and kiss them as much as I want, when I want. In those 21 days I have held Nora only 3 times for a total of about 100 minutes. And, probably I will not be able to hold her much if at all this next week either. It really just breaks my heart and makes me cry. Mostly, I can just go on auto pilot and not think about things too much and just visit and do what I have to do. Then, things like today happen that just rock me off my foundation a bit.

Typhoid Nora, awake for the camera. Anyone else think she is pleading for me to get her out of there, just make it all better, or at least just hold her and give her hugs and kisses? Ray, stretching in for a nap after some mommy cuddle time.