On the mend

Nora looked so much better when I visited this afternoon. I even got to hold her for a few minutes while her nurse cleaned out and changed her bedding. She's off the respirator (bypassing the CPAP) and on high flow cannula for oxygen. She was alert and awake a few times including when I was holding her. Much, much better. Her x-rays of her stomach and lungs were good. There is an infection growing from the cultures taken, but they won't know what it is for a few days. However, she is responding to the antibiotics and looking and acting so much better. Sadly and probably not too surprisingly, the road to recovery is slower than the fall to illness. My word, did that girl of mine give me a scare last night. I will never ever forget how blue she was and them trying to bring her back up until they asked me to leave the room.

Ray continues to do well. He is off oxygen and caffene for a few days now. He's "nippling" and taking his entire bottle two out of every three feeds. I get to try to breastfeed him tomorrow.

Max is hanging in there and taking it all in stride. He'll ask me what's the matter when he sees me crying, but fine with my explanation that Nora is sick and that I'm worried about her and that sometimes you just need to cry a little.

I'm tired. Didn't get home from the hospital until 4 am, then had to pump and was up at 6 or 6:30. I have more I could say, but too tired to put it into words. Thanks everyone for the kind thoughts and prayers. It looks like we are weathering this latest crisis. I hope there are not many more of them. I find them harder to deal with not easier.