Donor started stims, and other random thoughts

My donor had her baseline u/s sound yesterday and started stims. She had 20 preantrals....ON EACH SIDE...for a total of 40. Holy crap is all I can say to that. Really, I hope that no more than 20 are retrieved because I think that quality gets compromised with too much quantity. But, 40. Wow! As I told my coordinator, I don't think I had 40 total the entire time I've been ttc. I hope she doesn't over stim again. She got mild OHSS last time. We lowered the dosage. The protocol is solid. What will be will be at this point.

My e2 was 153 on Monday, which basically sucks. I did better about remembering my Viagra today. In part, because a friend gave me a fertility bracelet last night that I wore as a reminder. Another friend gave me a fertility stone on Monday night. Both said they had been carrying them around for me for ages, maybe even a year. I'm hoping it is extra good luck that they both gave them to me now.

I was thinking it was my good fortune that Max decided to take off his diaper and poo and pee all over his crib during nap time (not on my watch) so I didn't have to clean up the mess until I went to put him down for bed and realized it smelled too bad in there to have gotten cleaned all the way. Had to pull the crib out to get to a monster size BM and clean poo off the wall and outside of the crib.

I'm tired of coughing and stuffy noses and sucking on cough drops, but I am feeling better than I have been the last few days. Not great, but better.

My cousin left today and the house seems a bit quiet and lonely and empty even if I was ready for a break and some true alone time (after Max is in bed for the night).

Hard to stay too down about things with Max around. He's just talking up a storm. Singing all of the songs in Sound of Music. And, decided the last two nights that he wants to "hug your arm momma. Sleep with your arm." and proceeds to cuddle himself around my hand and arm in a big body hug. Just made my heart melt, but not enough to let him get away with it for more than 30 seconds or so. He is a charmer, but as I told him. Shadow and City need a turn and I'm tired and want to go to bed myself.